MY RESPONSIBILITY

Surely aware of enemy eyes,

Peering out through the trees!

Forest was thick and heavy with brush!

Fully aware of what he sees!

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Wishing he had some ammo,

Watching with baleful eyes,

Wished to demolish this soldier!

Take him down, surprise!

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Did I read enemy correctly?

As I dared him to appear?

Take him on single handed,

Think I had no fear?

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Left Tommy gun back in my hole!

Restless in that warm rain.

Grimaced and growled with every throw,

Two trench knives, over and again!

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At the trees, one near, one far,

One bayonet I had rescued

From Japanese, it was much longer,

Than our G.I. issue!

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Pretty proficient, I became!

Each throw repetitiously,

All day did not mind the rain!

Each throw was an enemy.

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Each throw, my imagination,

Each throw with a growl,

“Love you enemies?” meaningless!

Each toss grew a scowl!

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“Come and get it!”  I would mutter!

Hate enemy, of course!

After all I am a soldier now!

Jesus, took on that cross!

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Jesus died for His enemies! (*)

Yes, but this is war!

Do we hate, shoot from fear!

What is this fighting for?

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Daylight dawned!  What was that sound?

Loud with a fearsome yell!

Was it a friendly or enemy?

Had to look, just hard to tell!

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How did I know exactly where to go?

Enemy?  My threatening looks?

Hate begets hate!  This I know!

Hotel rooms carry those books!

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Booby trap!  Our guy lay dying!

What happened?  I could not quite say!

Curiously!  He wandered around where I had been,

Dear God, how to pray?

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How could I not feel responsible,

Responsible?  Did I kill?

Certainly God forgave long ago!

Then why remember it still?

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(*) “Father forgive them…”

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Sam Cox  03.18.19

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